Archive for January, 2007

thoughts on the virtual

i could probably write several books on this perpetual thought/concept that runs through my brain…

the thought of what truly is REAL and what is not… what is… VIRTUAL?

it’s funny how the original movie, THE MATRIX, was so powerful to me… it simply put into a real, visual sense the thoughts and feelings i have had for so many years… that what we are doing, living, believing is all a cruel freaking LIE!

we can ponder who is the one being cruel… i’ll give my belief… nothing mystical i’m afraid. it is US! our ego’s. our thinking mind that is the cruel monster.

we are of nature. no one can deny this. yet it seems we’ve spent all our walking time on this earth running away from it. trying to cover it up. overwrite it with the stories in our minds. resurrecting the methodical machinery that complicates and distracts us from ourselves and our inherent beauty.

what’s the dividing line between the real and the virtual? my opinion is that it is the time factor. if we all stood still for a nice period of time… the virtual will be rewritten by the real. basically, nature always wins in the end, devouring/taking back what is hers… cities would crumble. highways would give. the winds would blow and deposit the REAL over the UNreal. treas and plants and nature would eventually take it all back.

so… thinking on these terms, how much of the daily life you live is rooted in the real? my guess is not much… if any at all.

our whole existance has become NONreal, virtual. not OF the real, natural world. money, finances, bills, loans, houses, cars, jobs, credit cards, daily pressures… i could go on and on and on… but i’m hoping you get the point.

how did we come to this? to this point where we are so weighted down by illusion? by a crazy virtual world; a freaking video game, if you will! we’re having heart attacks over it. committing suicide over it. feeling great pain and isolation, loneliness, frustration and confusion over it. and it is not real!

so if all this CRAP we are doing is not real… what IS?

well… sit for awhile and click RELOAD on my blog. keep staring at the header images that rotate through the top of my blog. those mystical, magical, beautiful pictures are OF the real. of the stuff that has lasted thousands and thousands of years. from before us and long, Long, LONG after us. how we can be so mesmerized just staring for long periods of time at such realness, such scenery. it’s nature that is constant. grounding. peaceful… yet we’ve conjured so many fables, stories and even religions that separate us from this. makes us fear the very thing that can hold constancy… dependability.

the persistance of impersistance… yet in all the everchanging chaos. in all that which we want but can never hold onto… we need NATURE to give us footing. give us perspective. make us REAL.

so… how much NATURE have you had in your life this week? this month? this year?

come out of the fog. the hazy, crazy rat race… go find a quiet spot in nature and just sit, cross your legs, tell your thinking mind to FUCK OFF for awhile and put all your concentration on your breathing, your ears… let them open up and for the first time truly listen… take in the sounds around you. feel yourself expanding… becoming larger than your physical self. watch the trees gently sway back and forth and back and forth… similar to the rhythm of your heart beating throughout your body… in your ears.

rhythm… the basic underpinning of all nature and being; living and breathing. the rhythmic voice of all that connects the real, the natural, the you and the me.

the secret to confidence is preparation

There can be no great courage
when there is no confidence or assurance.
Half the battle is in the conviction
that you can accomplish what you undertake.

Confidence doesn’t come out of nowhere.
It’s the result of constant work and dedication.

With practice you’ll come to a point of competence.
You’ll find yourself accomplishing your goals gracefully and confidently.

It’s then that you’ll do things
that you never dreamed you could do.
You’ll discover powers you never knew existed.
When you’re prepared, you’re able to feel confident.

– The Daily Guru

no authority is higher than reality

Truth isn’t a matter of your personal viewpoint.
Learn to see things as they really are,
not as you imagine they are.

Wrong is wrong, no matter who does it or who says it.
No matter what you believe, it never changes the facts.
If they are there, the facts always speak for themselves.

The truth does not change because it is, or is not,
believed by a majority of people.
If sixty million people say a foolish thing,
it’s still a foolish thing.

The sky is no less blue because the blind man does not see it.

– The Daily Guru
 

you’re beautiful

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I’m sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won’t lose no sleep on that,
‘Cause I’ve got a plan.
You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don’t think that I’ll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.
You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it’s time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

– James Blunt

need a spending plan?

“Paying off your debts and saving money is less stressful than spending the rest of your life with your back against a financial wall.”

– Ron Hiebert

How are you choosing to spend your money?

Do you have a spending plan? A spending plan feels quite different from a budget. With budgets, we can feel victimized. They can heighten our poverty consciousness.

With a spending plan, you look at how much you earn and then decide how you WANT to spend the money. With a spending plan, you claim your power to decide, to manage, to make your finances work. You can choose to spend your money differently so your life works more smoothly.

“True financial freedom is not only having money, but having power over that money as well.”

– Suze Orman

wonderful weekend

well… dispite the fact i’m still a bit sick, my weekend was quite nice.

saturday was a long walk through the neighborhood beginning with blissful bean coffee shop for a nice latte. later i had a bunch of errands, getting my hair cut and things before heading for my friend’s house… i have old friends that live 1/2 hour north of here that i have not seen in several years. well saturday we got together for a nice dinner with plenty of wine… just like old times.

i cannot express how wonderful it was to see them. they were like my best friends for a long time. yes, age has definitely crept up on us all. LOL! but all in all, the same great energy. it was nice.

sunday was a day of rest, roaming around wine shopping, food shopping, eating brunch at a great italian restaurant having SEVERAL cappuchino (cause they were so good!) and out of this world pizza! MMMMmmmm….

that eve was an inhome movie “good night and good luck.” kitties were definitely appreciative of the long period of time they could be on our laps, close to us.

here’s to nice weekends! is amazing to be able to enjoy them again…

open your hands

“More than any other part of the body, our hands reveal our inner state.”

– Omraam Mikhaël Aïvanhov

Today, be aware of how you hold your hands when you’re not actively doing something with them.

With the stress of our daily lives, many of us find our hands typically clenched in fists. This is proof of the tension we hold in our bodies. And ponder this: how can we receive the abundance of life if our hands are not open to receive it?

When you become aware that your hands are closed tight, stretch your fingers and spread them wide in the shape of a starfish. Deep breathing will also help you relax into the moment.

“What is always speaking silently is the body.”

– Norman Brown

the kitty bunch…

so what you may not know is that our household is now a FOUR KITTY household!!! so just like the brady bunch… it’s the coming together of a family.

Miss Lulu       Mr Misha

the first photo is Lulu… i call her miss pantaloon or a.k.a - “fluffy butt” because she has a very fluffy behind and she wears her tail VERY differently than most cats… it’s curled up! the next pic is of Misha who is FREAKING HUGE! i have not weighed him yet… but i would not be surprised if the scale tipped to 22 pounds! SERIOUSLY! so… i call him “fat boy” a lot… not in a bad way, mind you!

we were both afraid of how the merging of our kids would be. i was prepared for all hell to break lose but thankfully… it has been pretty easy. no wounds and only brief hissing spats here and there. misha and harley are having the worst time since they both were the dominant kitties of their house.

so yes! now i can be called “the crazy lady with all the cats!”

 

coronado beach @ sunset

one of the many things i am loving about san diego are all the beaches. well…. ok… the nice beaches coupled with the NICE WEATHER!

these pics were taken on christmas as we were walking around the coronado hotel, watching ice skaters at the outside winter iceskating rink and taking a long walk up and down the beach.

Sunset One     Sunset Two

kinda pretty, eh?

the children

LOL! well i do not have any pics of my little babies. so i’ve been chasing them around with my Palm Treo 680 snapping shots of them. needless to say from their expressions… they were NOT too happy about it!

Nicki's Mugshot

above is little Nakita, a.k.a. “niki.”

Gangster Harley 

here is a mug of Harley. she ALWAYS has to look so damn pissed off!